summer dreams.

a prick in my skin

2011-11-21T23:39:00.002+08:00

i guess it's my fault that i couldn't have the same holidays as the local uni undergrads. i don't know if i should follow my original plans.

study study study, don't regret again.

2011-10-07T23:54:00.004+08:00

A man with imagination, creativity, innovation. A visionary that changed the world. A phenomenal. Launching gadget after gadget, technology after technology.

His speech at a commemoration at Standard University was truly an inspiration:

"Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."

"Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle."

"Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."

"Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish."

- Steve Jobs

These are excerpts taken from Steve Jobs' commencement address to the Stanford University's graduands. It breathes life into one who has fallen, one who faces failure. He didn't succeed immediately like everyone else. No one does. And through determination, vision, hard work (sweat and blood), he created products that were sensational. Who, can't resist owning an item that was produced by Apple, and especially when it was released and developed under the watch of Steve Jobs?

I'm probably like every other fan of Apple's (and also Steve Jobs), I cannot resist myself playing with my Apple gadgets (and getting them). First it was my iPod classic (I felt the itch to get myself an iTouch but I couldn't afford one at that moment:( ) and now, my oh-so-marvellous 13" MacBook Pro. It must be the most awesome laptop that I've gotten for myself and I can't help but touch it once everyday :)

His brilliance, his innovation has helped change the world. You can too, in your own little way. You can, change YOUR world into a place better for yourself.

And I'm going to do(try) that for myself too :)

Like what Steve Jobs said,

Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. Stay hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thanks a lot Mr Jobs :)

R.I.P

2011-08-01T23:34:00.003+08:00

for the past few months, it's tough for me. then i look at others, they've been working hard.

remorseful and regret. but i have to go down this route.

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if you can decipher this, great for you.

2011-06-30T16:25:00.002+08:00

it's my birthday today!

it's a rather wet day :( heavy rain early in the morning till afternoon. i think it has stopped already? yay :) i'm thankful to all the friends i have who wished me happy birthday! it's great to have them around :)

smile smile smile smiles.

today marks my birthday. it also marks my last day of work!

first emotion: yay! (end of work, money comes in, tomorrow sleep in! :D)
second emotion: a little longing feeling :/

my colleagues are quite nice people especially my seating neighbour - helen. she always offers me food. haha it makes me fat! and she tells me stories and all. apparently she doesnt remember me sitting beside her during CNY at uncle Alan's place! i believe she'll see me next year :)

and mas. although i dont really like releasing BOs throughout the day, she's still nice. she asked me how i was coping with the work and what i had for lunch etcetc. like those super random but heartwarming questions.

ANYWAY THIS SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED ON MY BIRTHDAY BUT INTERNET SCREWED IT UP SO IT'S A LATE POST. BYE :D

2011-06-29T12:27:00.003+08:00

another lesson learnt: if you need help, seek help. stop being so stubborn thinking you can do it by yourself as a way to prove to others that you are smart and not stupid.

2011-06-27T15:37:00.002+08:00

do you think this blog needs PICTURES???????

i believe the answer is yes. i'll try to get pictures of my life or prolly from tumblr/lookbook/deviantart?? i know it's too simple white. colours are very much welcomed.

oh brother...

2011-06-27T15:32:00.002+08:00

i am very lazy to touch up on the layout of my blog. :/

there's this saying: the future is yours to make.
so true right? future is yours to make, but the process is tedious. if you are willing to sacrifice 3/4 of your lifetime crafting it, then the future you aspire will come true. and that's what everyone's doing because there's no other way to do it.

in life you're bound to meet obstacles. they will create problems in everyway they can, emotionally, mentally and even physically. it's how you deal with these obstacles that let you around them. i chose to step back, and even further. so now i'm asking for a second chance. a second chance to compensate my move, to correct my mistakes.

i got it.

but im asking for a better one. whether or not i'm given ( i do hope i get it) this second chance, i believe i know which way to take it and whether or not will i let obstacles push me down and make me never stand up again.

the choice is yours, is mine. ours. let's do what is best for ourselves.

2011-06-22T17:19:00.003+08:00

the amount of effort i see her put in makes me guilty as i didnt put in as much as she did when i had my june holidays last year. what's wrong with me?

why do people procrastinate, only to regret when things dont turn out the way they want it to be?

hence, please, (to brain)
study for FTT and pass. seriously must pass. you must start making proper preparations whether or no the issue is minor or major.

and i gotta pack my room. it's dusty though i did wipe. it's messy. i cant stand it but somehow i can live with it. strange much? lol.

the day i go changi with you, will be the day we sit by the shore and watch the sunset :)

awesome.

2011-06-16T16:42:00.005+08:00

being in the real world is seriously hard reality.

#1 suck it up. not suck up but suck it up. like it or not, you cant complain. complain and receive the sack. everyone else is doing the same. just that some pushes more work to you. so the kind ones get bullied. thus, :(

#2 almost everything is based on meritocracy. which sucks. people with interests in certain job scope cannot excel as they are not able to attain the grades expected.

#3 you just gotta work hard. work until your soul collapses but you still have to continue. it's just life.

#4 flexibilty. being rigid will end you nowhere good. adapt and adjust to make the environment a better place for you, and maybe, for others.

#5 you work for yourself and not for others.

#6 there is vast difference in the way one thinks between males and females.

#7 things progress too fast that humans are trying to catch up with the pace.

#8 the world is collapsing (because of us).

#9 we sit in front of computer screens and type away like zombies.

#10 when will we (really) enjoy life?

2011-06-13T14:02:00.001+08:00

i managed to sell 1 piece of my brand new clothing! happy me~

i hope i can sell the others so my bank wouldnt be sooo dry ): i've spent too much on clothes! trying to sell them and earn some hard cash back!

im in the midst of writing my appeal. i hope it does impress the board of appeals although i know my chances are very very slim.

hope. believe. faith.

2011-06-10T14:55:00.002+08:00

i want to go overseas with him and see the awesomely beautiful scenery of nature. we must go to spain and UK so he can see his spain and arsenal teams woohoo... this is so random. this is called, bored at work.

2011-06-09T16:00:00.002+08:00

if only the world didnt have this thing called, 'comparison'.

some have to work hard to earn it, but eventually didnt after working hard cause they had to sacrifice their own. some didnt have to work hard to get it. some worked hard to get it, and got it eventually not because they worked hard but cause others just wanna give.

which category do you fall into?

2011-05-27T16:13:00.002+08:00

i just realised that the past posts (quite a number of them :s) were negativity. he reminded me of my character this morning: optimistic.

i was totally ashamed by my actions, totally disturbed about the change. i am, very surprised, that something as simple as this can change a person inside out. no one will ever think that even the slightest thing can change a person's character or personality, am i right? or you may think yes, but it will not happen to you as you think that you can control yourself and maintain that personality of yours. easy to say it, difficult to execute. as the saying goes, "easy to climb, difficult to maintain" - this applies to almost everything.

his words struck me hard. it was a wake up call, literally. the whole text just brought me up from where i had fallen. although he wasnt able to be here, he made the effort to maintain his presence around me despite his fatigue. he constantly reminded me that he couldnt be by my side, but he can be with me "spiritually". something in me lit. i had no idea what to call that, or what you would call that, but it was something that would enable you to continue and strive.

that's the thing i love about him. he always helps me, somehow. i cant expect more from him when he gives me more than expected. he enabled me to realise that i dont have to get a handsome guy, with a wealthy family and a good education status to be loved for. in fact, think, you may get the most handsome guy on earth, with a family of status and top-notch education and career but not the love. with him around, i do feel love from him, sometimes too overwhelming but endearing. haha.

i am also shocked to hear that someone else still reads my blog now and then. i do know of one person who reads, others whom i name anonymous will definitely be unknown to me but you, have seriously 'stunned' me for a moment. never have i thought that this lonesome place will have visitors, next to its owner. im honoured to have you read my posts.

awkward ending cause im pressing for time.

i've got a rehearsal till 10pm and i am honestly drained. 1.5hrs of ________ seriously gives one nothing but a headache and dreamy eyes = sucks.

cheerios (:

this shall mark my first happy post, although it doesnt seem too happy nor even happy. but at least not ):

2011-05-26T11:04:00.002+08:00

i dont think i will want any kids now. why bring them into a life where you only face stress and stupid obstacles?

2011-05-26T09:33:00.002+08:00

learning to make a decision is a painful and difficult process. because when you make a decision, you have to accept it wholeheartedly. not accepting it will result in you suffering.

whatever it is, life is a painful process.

2011-05-24T14:18:00.001+08:00

i tried but it failed. it's okay, i told myself. it's okay. find another way, or accept it. then i was told about something else. it brought me hope. i'm not going to let it slip this time. i'm going to make full use of it.

im thankful for the ones around me, honestly. including my family. i know they've been trying to sound me out, make me speak to them. i was afraid, scared. but i managed to muster courage and speak to one of them - brother.

now it's just trust. trust me and i will do it.

first i need to get distractions away. the very first will be online shopping. it's an addiction, seriously.

2011-05-23T10:27:00.003+08:00

i have made my decision. it wasnt abrupt. it has been on my mind for quite some time.
please God, give me a second chance to make things better.

i sincerely hope for the chance to be given to me. i shant be stupid anymore. i must be decisive, i must be strong. i know what im expected to do and i will do. as long as im given the chance. so please. i will face the embarrassment but it will all be worthwhile. see it as giving myself a second chance, another route, an opening. ignore what others say, do what you think is best for yourself.

i pray, and pray. interlocked fingers, tight, wish.

good luck.

2011-05-19T14:07:00.002+08:00

i just realised what i yearn for the most.

i just want a family who doesnt have a disgusting attitude.

2011-05-18T14:37:00.006+08:00

i've come to a point where tolerance level has reached almost maximum. yet i thought to myself is it because i'm rather petty and unwilling to accept reality?

it all boils down to : what do i want?

please others, please myself. i wish i can disapparate from earth.

should i take a step back or move forward? sometimes, it's good that there're choices. but sometimes, choices suck.

i made a promise to myself. a promise to the future.

i will not "neglect" my kids when they are young. not to say that my parents neglected me but i dont think i had an enjoyable childhood. there are so many things that i didnt get the chance to do when i was young. yes, my parents did bring me to many places - usa, taiwan, thailand. however, i never got to go to the neither the zoo, nor birdpark, nor night safari at all with them. i've never got to play at a playground happily for hours unlike other children with their parents sitting at the benches looking at them play. i vaguely remember the only time i got to go to the park was with my bro cause we sneaked there with our bikes.

i've also made it a point to try to control my temper and change my attitude cause i dont want my kids to treat me the way i treat my parents. i try to treat them as friends but i fail to do so because they hold such authority, such status to state that they are my parents and i have to listen and obey whatever they say. yes, that was when i was young. now i have a mind of my own and i dont like the way they do things. perspectives.

i would also love to see my kids craft their future and make decisions with me. and i really want to create a friendship-cum-parent relationship with my kids as i feel it is a good way to stay connected to their lives. there's one thing that i would want to do, something that my parents didnt carry out when i was young: talk to my kids frequently, starting from when they are young, make them voice out to me and i'll help them in a way that it doesnt not intimidate them.

you may ask: why dont i like to talk to my parents about my things? simple. they never know when to use the right tone and tones express the feelings of a person. different tones express different feelings. you gotta get the tone right to convey the right message. i seriously dislike tones that express that you're against the idea and you are angry cause there isnt a reason why you should be. you prefer this but i prefer the other. who's the one going to experience it?

i feel that life is a cycle that may be well, if you meet the right factors. these factors may be anything, from parents to friends to objects around. it can also mean chances, opportunities given to you and whether you make full use of it, grab it, utilise it, work towards it.

in life, there are many things to do, achieve, complete and compete. there's this thing called 'education'. without it, people wouldnt be where they stand now. without it, we'll be living in forests and act like barbarians despite the depth of knowledge we have in our brains. however, with education, i wonder if many can see that there's a portion of children suffering because of education (and of course, the portion of children dying to learn). ever wonder why so many children are visiting the psychiatrist? ever wonder how much stress a child can get from studying? ever wonder whether the child likes studying or he is studying for the sake of studying? i believe these questions are worthy to think about.

and the question i ask myself: why, in this society, is education treasured so much despite the detrimental effects set upon the ones who are learning?

(this is a total change of mood) i feel that i have written enough. gtg runnnn.
ciao~

2011-05-18T09:19:00.001+08:00

Question: should i have gone back? will my chances be better?

2011-05-12T14:55:00.005+08:00

May 7. A challenging day. I thought of taking this for quite some time but due to someone who told me that it was difficult to score, i didnt dare to take. now, i felt i should have registered earlier and prepared earlier.

there was supposed to have a whole lot of words here but due to technical faults, everything was deleted except for the first paragraph. thus, too bad for my readers lol.

a confession: i dont like to tell things to my parents because i dont like their thinking. i do agree with my mom that i think differently. no doubt about that. but ya. i just think differently.

i remembered i told someone before, i want to make a change. to make a change, i have to be brave and face things with different perspectives. for all you know, my difference in thinking may result in my doing huge things. i dont know what they are, but im sure of my capabilities.

that's all.

bye.

mixed feelings

2011-04-12T14:16:00.002+08:00

to whom who reads this, i guess you are lucky/unlucky that you get to read this as i havent been blogging frequently. it just shows that you still frequent my blog though it's 7/8 dead.

i dont know whether to feel sad or happy. he has received the notification for the interview at smu. but i didnt receive any. i waited, eagerly, in hope that they will consider my achievements in cca and leadership.

i am still waiting.

i still constantly tell myself that i have to study well for my SATs. i didnt study well for A's. netiher do i understand it comprehensively. but now, im just trying luck. i know that when it comes to admissions to major institutions, you cannot rely on luck but more of your capabilities and abilities. i believe i didnt give myself a chance to shine as i was procastinating when i told others not to. contradict much right?

hence, dear fiona, when will you wake up from your deep trance? come on. just score well for SATs, maybe they'll give you a chance. and also, do your letter. you have to. if you dont, no one will help you. it's that simple yet difficult to digest. so right now, just get it into your head.

i believe that you can become who you used to when you were young. motivated. willing to strive and do the utmost best that you can. of course, with much preparation. remember how you soar and score with flying colours during streaming? im sure you can for this upcoming test. and BTT too. just put in 110%. aim for your goal. getting into EM1 was tough at that age of yours. it's the same for this. so do what you know what to do. believe in yourself and your capabilities. best to believe is, you are not stupid, you are an intelligent girl who can do what others can do, and you can even do more.

believe in yourself.

title-less

2011-03-05T00:19:00.003+08:00

as everyone said, A's is the worst exam in every JC student life. i've totally understood it and im suffering its consequences.

1. go to respective schools to see if they are willing to take me in

2. take my diploma in piano (teaching) and learn how to teach piano

3. repeat A's (again)

yup. so i have to decide. i wonder where i can make it? please someone, accept me.

failure again

2011-02-28T13:53:00.002+08:00

i thought that the test would be straightforward. but apparently not. i failed, once again. i had to retake the test. and i hope it's not a sign for my A's.

my A's are coming out this week. hope things would be all right.

2011-02-24T14:14:00.002+08:00

When will I ever sit down and really study like she does? Getting dean award is an honourable thing and only minority gets it. Even not getting it but getting good results makes one feel heartwarming as it takes a lot to score well. Results are almost out and there's no point worrying although it is constantly there. Someone please tell me I qualify at least. Though I'm discouraged to do what I wanna do most, at least give me a chance to do what I wanna do next.

I have many many things I want to do but I just gotta set things right first. But really I hope that I an at least score. Just let me in. And I will really prove my potential. These months have set me thinking and to really get what I want I have to earn it. That's what I learnt from RY. Be yourself and work hard to get what you want to achieve.

So someone please tell me first that I did well.

take a step back

2010-12-08T22:04:00.001+08:00

the reason why i stepped back and refrain is because i'm afraid that people cannot accept my true self and i cannot accept it myself.

look at them, then look at me. a failure at friendships. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

it's over

2010-11-30T23:31:00.002+08:00

A's are finally over. the holidays are here, for me. but i dont feel like im having a holiday. it's because i know i didnt do very well or even well for A's. i know what's upcoming for me. yet, i really hope that i dont have to face it again. Preparation for A's is really tiring.

im having a headache. bad headache.

this november

2010-11-25T18:06:00.004+08:00

everyone has to admit that she's gorgeous isnt she? defined features on her faces of which she was once a cute petite, and now full-grown. i just cant get enough of her.

it's not the end yet im looking forward to it, and so are others. what else do we expect after a whole year of endless studying??

credits: fashionfever

sometimes

2010-11-25T18:01:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wish that i have long waves, defined arms, flat tums, toned legs and a sexy bottom.

sometimes.

credits: fashionfever

2010-11-21T18:37:00.001+08:00

credits: fashionfever

an occurrance

2010-11-21T18:02:00.002+08:00

i happened to chance upon that. and what i've read left me thinking. and guess im one of those.

when the world comes crashing down on you, and that you thought that people around you would pick you up. yet whatever they do leaves you down.

so... words speak louder than actions or actions speak louder than words now?

and i thought that treating someone genuinely will earn someone's respect to treat you the same and no difference.

i was wrong.

it's been so long, yet im drowned

2010-11-21T15:59:00.003+08:00

im back, after so long. im sorry to have neglected this little chamber that contains almost all my thoughts for the past approximately 3 years.

now im almost finishing my exams, it was horrible to begin with. but giving up now would be a waste of everything so might as well press on and continue.

i did a terrible mistake in this time that i've been gone. something that because of my brain or what i thought would help ended up making things worse for myself. at first i thought i've gained someone whom i can talk to easily (well, these two years, i'm still not able to adapt to the people around me, i just cant fit in and i do miss the 'twins', a lot.), but after that incident, i've seen the change that may seem oblivious to them, or may not, yet very obvious to me.

i always thought i've handled things carefully, until i met one who handles things more thoroughly than i do. and someone that honestly, i cant give my 100% at all. these two years were tremendous hurdles for me when it comes to people. i dont know how to explain but just that it's tricky, it's tedious, unlike others who can handle it so well despite the many different people they meet. sometimes i wish for a much clearer path and a better opinion. sometimes i wish i dont have to fake a smile or laugh but inside im feeling awful. i tried to be myself, but i realised i hadnt been being myself in order to avoid scorns.

so yea, things changed, and the one whom i thought could be ended up not and instead with another. it's not like i wanted things to be this way, really. but my folly has turned things around and now im plunged into a world where i really dont know who i can turn to.

in fact, i wanted to turn to you but based on your opinions everytime, what can i say? i dont get good arguments and thus, i prefer to leave you as it is, and to just tell you what im happy about.

or maybe it's just that i've failed to be a trustworthy person afterall.

google chrome

2010-08-09T22:51:00.001+08:00

somehow my google chrome doesnt work on a few websites, wonder why.

any explanation people? heh.

people say im stressed, i dont feel stress, and somehow that's worrying.

desiresss

2010-08-07T21:45:00.003+08:00

for now i want a number of things:

1. good results
2. iphone 4g
3. dine at Canele Patisserie Chocolaterie

im beat.

lost

2010-07-25T23:20:00.003+08:00

i havent gotten used to my new template, i havent exactly figured out how to work this thing. hmmmmm sometimes i'm just a complete idiot and it's good to laugh at it, laughter is contagious, laughter is the best medicine!

i guess i'll figure it out probably after my exams? take a break once in a while to research on this, IM GONNA WORK ON IT.

cheerios!

time for a change

2010-07-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

things have gone pretty out of hand lately, i guess when time flies everything goes with it. or maybe more or less. it's already july, how fast. tomorrow's the 26th, and this reminds me of something! some joyous occasion.

i've been trying to inspire myself, get aspirations, get motivations. it's all within. people say, when you believe, then it'll come true. it's tough. i wonder how people get through this period of time. a big hurdle to jump over, a gigantic obstacle to get around it. yet as long as you've entered this path, you have 2 ways; quit or continue.

i chose to continue so i have to prepare myself for the FINALE.

i've changed my template to a simple sweet one, mainly cause i cant stand my old one. i change it once in a while. guess simplicity is always the prettiest! (that is to me of course)

this is sinful, i should be doing work. like really work.

270610.2

2010-06-27T14:37:00.002+08:00

i know a friend, or more like, i used to know this friend. this friend, however, seemed to be separated from me, by some invisible yet not so invisible barrier. this friend is someone that i thought i knew but not so much now.

i hope, a lot, that things will turn better probably at the end of this year? should i take the first step? im afraid things will go wrong after taking the first step. why is it so difficult? why must he/she make things difficult for me then? isnt it better to just leave in peace and harmony?

maybe i really should take the first step. i've trusted this friend, i've lived with this friend. it's not that i've lost trust in him/her, is that whether he/she has even trusted me in the first place.

i hope something will rekindle this friendship within, i do know he/she isnt that bad afterall.

i hope you'll back me up.

270610

2010-06-27T00:49:00.003+08:00

im shy, and tend to keep things to myself. i dont show people the other side of me cause i keep it within. im afraid of the world. im afraid of many things. build =/= who i am. im very ordinary. i cant imagine when things get out of hand and poof! everything starts, everything ends.

sometimes i wish the world would end today so i can run away from my troubles. yet that's a very cowardly way to escape from the problems i have. i wish you can save me now.

220610

2010-06-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

Anyone who doesnt believe in miracles is not a realist.

The greatest victory has been to be able to live with myself, to accept my shortcomings and those of others.

-earlgreyparty

220510.2

2010-05-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

i wish to go shopping with annie and duck and probably huiwen. even sitting down and have dinner would be good. i wanna buy many many things.
i wish to shop with dearie.

i wish to have dinner with jiee.

i wish to have dinner with piggy.

i wish to watch movie with whoever wanna watch a movie but i have no idea what to watch.

i wish to talk to bhai and abang.

i wish to bake a cake on 2nd june.

i wish to sit down with you, by the shore and watch the sunset across the horizon, and then time stops and that thin ray of sunlight spreads across the horizon and stays that forever, and ever.

i wish things wouldnt be this way.

220510

2010-05-22T22:43:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wish i could turn back time, not a month, not half a year, not a year but many many many many many years' time.

i wish, i ...

arrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

020510

2010-05-02T22:21:00.001+08:00

i shall be lame today.

presenting the ABC song! it's also called, the alphabet song! categorized under super simple songs. back to childhood people!

010510

2010-05-01T09:15:00.004+08:00

today is someone's birthday, hahahaha

happy birthday guan yan :D

i saw this song on quekky's blog and i agree that it's nice and melodious!

Against all odds

by Phil Collins

How can I just let you walk away,
just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain,
and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me
is against all odds and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
But to wait for you,
well that's all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now,
'cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take, oh, oho

Just take a look at me now

190410.2

2010-04-19T21:50:00.002+08:00

thanks those who expressed their concern. like my latest status in my fb, i've decided to move on with life (:

thanks loads! more than less all my friends :D

190410

2010-04-19T21:32:00.001+08:00

JIEEEEE IS BACKKK! :D

you made my day, prolly saturday, but it was like already 11 pm. so u made my saturday for 1 hour? hahaha yay, food spreeeeeee.

170410.2

2010-04-17T23:06:00.001+08:00

i can never be as good as him or even on par. be it music or academics. i have failed myself terribly.

I dont believe you - Pink

2010-04-17T20:50:00.004+08:00

I Dont Believe You

by Pink

I don't mind it
I don't mind at all
It's like you're the swing set
And I'm the kid that falls
It's like the way we fight
The times I've cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it's got to be right
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

I don't mind it
I still don't mind at all
It's like one of those bad dreams
When you can't wake up
It looks like you've given up
You've had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
Because I just know
You'll come around
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

Just don't stand there and watch me fall
Because I, because I still don't mind at all

It's like the way we fight
The times I've cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it's got to be right,
Right?

No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend to
Not love me at all

I don't believe you

170410

2010-04-17T18:50:00.002+08:00

i thought things were fine and that im doing what i was supposed to do. no, i wasnt.

then i got hit by a typhoon, swept away and ended up in a giant bottle capped jar with a tiny hole in the middle of the cap. either i get out of there or i just ...

050410

2010-04-05T21:20:00.003+08:00

it's been long since i've touched this. haha

and today was satisfying as i managed to learn something useful! i cant believe it but yes! it totally struck me. wanna know what it is? hahaha

it's time man, it's time.

210310

2010-03-21T11:25:00.003+08:00

some things arent meant to be posted here.

and why have i become so __________?

200310

2010-03-20T14:19:00.002+08:00

it's raining since morning, or more like it officially started yesterday just that it was on-off.

070310

2010-03-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

oh my, i just realised the date today! hmmm.

A level results were just released, pressure pressure pressure, shit. this isnt a good place to comment about stuff..

my confidantes are gone, 2 of them ): oh man.

to everyone, tomorrow's a brand new day! let's smile to it and whatever comes, take it and throw the unnecessary away (:

040310

2010-03-04T21:19:00.002+08:00

i just realised! it's the first post for March'10!

and I WANNA GET OUT OF MATHS STAR!!! tsk!!

i vaguely remember what i wanted to blog about today, but i've forgot about it except for that maths star thingy. hmmmm shall write another day?

bon voyage jieee :D

280210 - The Only Exception

2010-02-28T21:04:00.006+08:00

it's end of february. im still hanging there. hanging in mid air. people are soaring to skies, im more of near the ground. got what i mean?

tomorrow's vectors' test. horrible topic, took me 30 mins understand how to a sub question of a question. depicts how lousy i am at this topic.

why did i post another blogpost today? urge to blog? more or less like it but it's more of i saw someone's blog (happened to chance upon it though) and then thinking back, blahblahblah, and i decided to visit this old site once more.

life has been going and tough. things are going against what i think it would be. there isnt a point revealing them cause it doesnt help or more like, no one can do anything to change it. what's the point also? hah, things just have to move on. people too.

i cant wait for myself to get back to what i was, in primary 4? i still dont know how i manage to do it. and i guess that was the first and the last i've ever done something like this. when things are rolling downhill, it just takes a lot of effort to stop it and slowly go back uphill. but time isnt on my side.

oh well, song for today,

The Only Exception by Paramore

090210

2010-02-09T22:38:00.001+08:00

2nd day of friendship week! go facebook see those pictures :D

080210

2010-02-08T21:44:00.001+08:00

it's been long since i've last blogged. too much work to do, too much things going on. i have a test tomorrow and i havent studied for it. how wonderful.

happy 22nd month to you darling :D

that's all people, smile!

100110

2010-01-10T23:19:00.001+08:00

it's 100110. cool number. AND SCHOOL IS REOPENING. great. my work is 1/4 done :D

belated greeting to my brother:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D you've just hit the number 2!

and happy 21st month dar :D

060110

2010-01-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

it's time! for the money to start accumulating. i have a goal. hahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahaa evil.

020110.2

2010-01-03T00:09:00.002+08:00

get this soon so i can play (:

and audrey was right, i shouldnt compare, it makes life miserable only.

020110

2010-01-02T23:48:00.001+08:00

my best friend's birthday ( in primary school ) is tomorrow. how nice. she'll be 18.

this just popped in my mind, like just only.

people never fail to realise how fortunate they are, including myself.

311209

2009-12-31T23:06:00.002+08:00

GOODBYE 2009, HELLO 2010!

okay that's all, i shall blog another day. got people to entertain! byeeee! :D

LOVE YOU, YOU AND YOU!
AND ALL OTHERS! :D

291209

2009-12-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

im asked to blog today. i shall. hahaha

today was choir farewell! well, quite an unlucky start for me. i thought i was prepared for the day so i made my way to the bus stop. quite a wondrous start, the sun wasnt as scorching as it would be - means my phone's weather forecast was quite/kinda accurate :D then! the horror came. i was in fact early! then i realised i forgot my rubber band. this made me watch my bus passed by me, oh so retarded. yea i walked all the way home, up 3flights of stairs to my home and got my rubber band. out i went and again! i realised, i forgot my cap! so i went back to take my cap. best of the best! as i walked out of my estate, i saw 2 buses, both heading for my destination, passed by. wonderful wonderful! -.-'''

and finally i reached pasir ris! hoho, got some stuff and headed to the pit. it's the first time i've walked that route to the pit and it's cool (: the wind there was super strong. so strong that it's difficult setting the fire up. we had some stuff missing and people were running up and down to get the items for the bbq. moses, isaiah, pengjie and me were trying to start the fire. we did and managed to cook a bit until the fire went out. then we were trying to set up the fire again while the rest went to play their treasure hunt. we thought it was tough! but it seemed like it's simple. time to brainstorm again! hahaa

i think the chicken was nice. though it was tough to cook. quekky and some others had to go early so they left. the sausages were nice also, some valley chef brand? it tasted better than emborg. hhaa! crabsticks and all were brilliant too. all i knew was i breathed in loads of smoke and drank my drink hastily cause im uber thirsty.

i didnt take pictures until the end when i felt really tired. like need air and all. woots. tough day and i forgot i was wearing white! and i leaned on the pit, causing my tanktop to be black. haiz. muddle-headed me. the farewell gift ceremony was quite nice in fact, seeing the juniors handing the seniors their presents, it's very sweet. and like finally, hard work paid off.

chuinchi met a mishap, not really big neither really small. thankfully she's fine now (: that's great man.

i went to meet geng and he said i smelled like charcoal and i agreed totally. several hours in front of the bbq pit! it's no wonder i'll smell that way. we had banmian for dinner. it's been long since i've had it. when i was queuing up waiting to tell the auntie my order, she went, "hello! havent seen you for very long already." sweet right! im so glad she still remembers me and best, she remembers my order (: and geng's one too! haha surprisingly. the uncle was there too and he asked where my brother was. such nice people who still remember me even after so long :D i've been eating there since sec 2! can you believe it! hahaa.

geng's brother seriously drives fast. he fetched me home and i was home within 15 mins - 20 mins? lol. i saw Bill outside. he's just so cute! the only thing is that he doesnt want me to carry him in. it seemed like he was enjoying the moonlight. haha

that's then for now. tired tired. and a little burnt. but not very nicely burnt. hmmm another day of suntan soon? hahah

Use Sombody - Kings of Leon

2009-12-28T22:46:00.001+08:00

Use somebody by Kings of Leon

Use Somebody (Cover) by Paramore!

281209

2009-12-28T21:45:00.003+08:00

pretty girl, her name's there. hahaha! check out her "Boys and Girls", "Cry me out" and " Mama Do" pretty awesome songs :D

omg, it's the 28th and i havent started my homework. GG!

and oh man, im going to miss my 6b gathering because the day clashes with the choir farewell. i just got to know about the gathering also so i cant change. haiz. every year we have one gathering but this year i cannot attend, how sad.

today was a long day, really. woke up at 0630 to get ready to go to wendy's place to finish up some stuff for choir. that's like a normal school day, the only difference is now it's the school holidays. but it went well :D just that the going to school and whatever happened in school was quite scary and there were clashes but everything cleared at the end of the day which is good.

tomorrow is choir farewell. i hope everything turns out fine (:

i wanna have a change of my closet. let me have it.

i hope you'll wake up one day and realized everything has changed. be back what you were.

201209

2009-12-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

slacking my days away...
tmr's my grandparent's (dont know grandma or grandpa's, i think it's grandpa cause i dont remember my grandma's to be this month) death anniversary. seeing their pictures warm my heart. im not being sarcastic or sadist, it's as if im seeing them in person. i've never seen my grandpa anyway, or much more like i dont remember seeing him. i have vague memories of my grandmum. yup.

and i envy people with their grandparents around.

191209

2009-12-19T14:50:00.001+08:00

my brother is back! :D

181209

2009-12-18T23:46:00.002+08:00

watch this video! it's very nice :D and funny too!

151209

2009-12-15T23:16:00.001+08:00

i finally managed to connect my computer to the wireless! after a dreadful number of days after my dad changed the modem. i havent uploaded any pictures from last week! oops! the cam's upstairs and im rather lazy. tmr morning? :D

i got a new phone! yay! it's all right though and dropping it wouldnt be a great idea and i just did it. wow. how great. i hope it'll still be working fine :D

and yingcong was right, the mentalist is an interesting show :D

051209.2

2009-12-05T00:52:00.008+08:00

NEW MOON!

lovey doveys! i think this picture is a very beautiful picture, very sweet :D

Jasper Cullen! (real name: Jackson Rathbone) pretty boy? haha

watched new moon yesterday with cheryls. awesomely sweet! :D those who havent catched it, go watch it. maybe it's better not reading the book first.

walked around orchard, from cineleisure to paragon to far east. paragon's toilet was WONDERFUL! clean, hotel-like and very unexpected. fantabulous. yesterday was a fantabulous day. honestly.

more pictures!

Alice Cullen! pretty vampire :D

Carlisle! I FINALLY KNOW HOW TO PRONOUNCE HIS NAME PROPERLY! handsome father of the Cullens :D

this is for quekky! hahaha she was uber high over him. check out those pacs :D

051209

2009-12-05T00:04:00.002+08:00

GET ME TO STRAWBERRY FIELDS! these strawberries are too delicious to resist! :DDD

031209

2009-12-03T22:03:00.001+08:00

happy birthday yong yee!
happy birthday karyl!
happy birthday soon!

you dont seem to be as close as before. and i wonder why.

Tae Yang - Wedding Dress

2009-11-27T13:23:00.001+08:00

cant get over it

2009-11-25T21:42:00.001+08:00

251109

2009-11-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

happy birthday bhai :D

191109

2009-11-19T20:29:00.007+08:00

monsoon season = cold nights. i cant stand it.

i just watched i think it's called My Star Guide or something like that. Chen Han Wei was the star guide for this episode and he brought them to Japan. And now im enticed to go there! hahaa

i wanna go to...

JAPAN!

FRANCE!

KOREA!

HOLLAND!

LONDON!

and back to AUSTRALIA! :D

gonna save up money money! then i can go to alllll of these places :D hahaha ciao for now!

171109.2

2009-11-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

i miss you, quite badly.

171109

2009-11-17T22:35:00.002+08:00

i honestly dont know.

pw's over. school's still on. and im still thinking of a way. no, ways.

i just finished watching a hong kong drama, now im left with nothing to watch. monsoon's in, and it's quite boring cause it's raining all day - hard to get out and play.

swimming with bro was postponed, again. haiz. in fact, both weekends were perfect weekends! but... -.-''' i should think of a way to get him to swim. muahahahhaa then praise me genius for it :D joking :D

131109

2009-11-13T00:44:00.004+08:00

PW IS OVER! YIPPEE! the horrendous moments are officially gone.

today dinner was uber duper sumptuous! i had the nicest dinner i've ever had!

isnt this pretty? such nice patterns, nice colour, nice body structure :D im sure you know what this is right?

fresh oyster! no fishy taste, and it's huge :D the shell's quite pretty too but of course, i couldnt bring it back home. lol.

black pepper crab! honestly, i prefer chilli crab but my relative couldnt take spicy stuff much.

this is some fish that tastes really nice. i only get to eat this in restaurants cause it is not sold in market. very soft meat that somehow melts in your mouth :D sweet!

lobster soup! and that's a piece of it :D pretty fresh red right! taste good too :D

im sure none of you knows that this is. i was quite surprised myself. the bowl on top is durian pudding :D. the glass bottle underneath is to create a misty effect whereby dry ice is placed into the green liquid and mist forms. :D

yea then we had durian and coconut drink for dessert. a whole lot of food right! now i suffer the consequences. stomachache. lol too bad, so sad ):

081109

2009-11-08T14:50:00.001+08:00

happy 19th months dearest :D

071109

2009-11-07T21:18:00.002+08:00

tired.

these few days im just feeling tired everyday. coming home is doing nothing except for sleeping. how wonderful. lol.

my swimming day has been postponed a week and im supposed to swim today but my bro isnt back yet ): so it's postponed again. poor bro, he's supposed to be back yesterday if not early this morning. haiz.

im not sure why but i've been munching on many stuff today. from wantwant crackers to icecream then jam biscuits, if i dont get fat, it will be a miracle! hhaha...

op is coming to an end! yippee :D but there's still lessons after op. boring~ what to do? haha

and there's so many things on my mind, not negative things, dont worry :D they are just plans on what to do in the near future. and i decided to give someone something approximately 7 months later for all that he has done for me. not forgetting you darling :D but im not sure if i can plan for you as you know, next year's a critical year for us. i just hope im given the permission to spend it with you. haha

031109

2009-11-03T01:08:00.001+08:00

sometimes i just dont understand you

021109.2

2009-11-02T23:40:00.001+08:00

geng; says:
dar
geng; says:
u are the butterfly
geng; says:
i am the net
geng; says:
i'm always attracted to u
geng; says:
=D

HAHAHAHA, *FLOATS!*

Ignorance - Paramore

2009-11-02T20:41:00.001+08:00

Ignorance
By Paramore

{Verse 1}
If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge, but if you're gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life

{Bridge}
Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same (Yeah! )
We're not the same (Yeah! )
Oh we're not the same
Yeah, the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good (Hey! )
It's good (Hey! )
It's good

{Chorus}
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

{Verse 2}
And this is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person, but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

{Bridge}
Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same (No! )
We're not the same (No! )
Oh we're not the same
Yeah, the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good (Hey! )
It's good (Hey! )
It's good

{Chorus}
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

021109

2009-11-02T09:02:00.002+08:00

it's november already. what a quick year; everything is coming to an end.

yesterday i watched secret: the movie. once again, i cried. lol. it's such a sad movie! but a touching on at the end. a movie i'll never get sick of. anyone has it? besides audreyyao who thinks she lost the dvd. -.-'''

im doing pw now, and going to continue it later. so much more to touch up on. i havent do my I&R how great, cause i forgot about it. lol. i shall do it later :D

piano exam was horrendous, im not sure if i can even pass. no wonder so many people drop theory at grade 6 or grade 5. haiz.

what's left for me?

251009

2009-10-26T01:05:00.001+08:00

IM GOING SWIMMING SOON! YIPPEE! but i dont know when. -.-

PW SUCKS MAN! spending hours on it yet not doing a proper one is horrendous. why does such a subject exist?!

241009

2009-10-24T23:08:00.002+08:00

first up!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREYYAO :D
i bet she's having the most wondrous time of her life now. best is, she's 17!

next and the last,

just 2 days only, and im feeling empty. the third is coming. when will you be home?

231009.3

2009-10-23T23:55:00.002+08:00

honestly, this has been on my mind and i dont know whether to write it out. after viewing someone's blog, i decided to post it as well.

09s29, a vibrant class in fact. rowdy yet a funny bunch of people. you'll never fail to smile as long as you go to school. no doubt, i only talk much to a few and the rest are just this nor that, you still feel that without them, everything wouldnt have existed. getting to face the fact is tough, and it's hard. the only word i can say is miss. not miss as in missing a shot but an empty space in my heart and mind where memories and emotions are kept.

09s29 will never be forgotten and i will miss you all loads. too much.

231009.2

2009-10-23T23:52:00.002+08:00

my room, my sanctuary. i love it when the house is empty and just me. the peace i get and everything. no worries, hakuna matata.

231009

2009-10-23T23:07:00.003+08:00

i love oranges! LOL. this is uber random.

i was being lame with audrey by talking to her on msn when she's right beside me. cant get enough of her. lol. i got nothing much to say about this week as it's results and pw, that's all. too blank. mind's blank. i dont know.

wished i had one of these, then i can take pretty landscape pictures that are nice with brilliant colours that can be seen clearly. and it will be nice if i can take pictures of the sky. how wonderful that will be.

171009

2009-10-17T23:21:00.002+08:00

i watched the sun set beyond the horizon of my view, it was beautiful. staying home all day doing project work is tiring. time flew past so quickly, it's already 11.26 pm now.

next thing i have to do is! THEORY! horrendous, horrendous. but to score for it, i have to practice more yea? thanks to my lovely teacher, she gave me 4 questions. each supposedly takes 1/2 hour to do but i take more than 4 hours to do. tough.

better start doing and the crickets/lizards outside are pretty noisy tonight.

Someone asked me, "Do you miss your past?"
Before i could answer, he said, "Only people who do not have confidence in the future do that."

Single Ladies(Put A Ring On It) - Beyonce

2009-10-17T08:56:00.003+08:00

Single Ladies
by Beyonce

All the single ladies (7x)

Now put your hands up
Up in the club, we just broke up
I’m doing my own little thing
you Decided to dip but now you wanna trip
Cuz another brother noticed me
I’m up on him, he up on me
dont pay him any attention
cuz i cried my tears, GAVE three good years
Ya can’t be mad at me

[Chorus]
Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it

wo oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh oh x2

(Chorus)Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it

I got gloss on my lips, a man on my hips
hold me tighter than my Dereon jeans
acting up, drink in my cup
I couldnt care less what you think
I need no permission, did I mention
Dont pay him any attention
Cuz you had your turn
But now you gonna learn
What it really feels like to miss me

(Chorus)

Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it

woo oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh oh 2x

Don’t treat me to the things of this world
I’m not that kind of girl
Your love is what I prefer, what I deserve
Is a man that makes me, then takes me
And delivers me to a destiny, to infinity and beyond
Pull me into your arms
Say I’m the one you WANT
If you don’t, you’ll be alone
And like a ghost I’ll be gone

All the single ladies (7x)
Now put your hands up
woo oh ooh oh oh ooh oh oh ooh
oh oh oh 2x

Cuz if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don’t be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it woo oh ooh 2x

101009

2009-10-17T08:37:00.002+08:00

hey :D have you watched the video posted below? if not, watch it! it's really cute and funny.

school's timetable now is totally screwed up. having many hours of break in between the lessons is ridiculous! furthermore, we just go for mother tongue and pw now, so everything sums up equates to wasting time!

so yea it's boring in school now. there's nothing much to do and during the break, we sit down and watch movies :D i watched saw IV yesterday and it was so gruesome. felt like puking after the movie but the plot's really nice! it's just the punishments that were scary and gory (spelt this way?) and the screams that added on to my fears. no more watching of saw anymore. lololol.

be strong girl, be strong.
i believe you.
you know what im talking about.
:D

funny bear video

2009-10-17T08:36:00.001+08:00

this video is sure to make you laugh and perhaps, cheer your day up :D

141009

2009-10-14T22:53:00.002+08:00

haha im a very nice person. and cheryl quek's a nice person too. :D that "description" of her was fake so dont take it to heart yea!

the thing is, when you know her, you'll know how she's like. she's really nice, and this isnt a joke.

Rachmaninov has big hands

2009-10-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

this is a video of this pianist playing a piano piece from Rachmaninov, a composer with very very large hands, and his assistant passing him those wooden thingys that are long enough to play the chords properly. haha

141009

2009-10-14T21:48:00.007+08:00

WOOHOO, THIS IS RATHER BELATED BUT PROMOS ARE OVER! WEEEEEEEEEEE~

tears of happiness because it's over, but it's not exactly over. i shant talk about it.

it was a fruitful weekend + 2 marking days. immediately on friday i went shopping with the twins :D and it was so relieving! haha it has been very long since i've shopped and that totally started my engine for shopping. we walked quite long and all and both annie and my feet were pain cause i got a skincut and annie wasnt used to her flats. yeaaa sad. but whatever it was, we were happy to buy some stuff and more stuff. the ultimate shopper of the day - QUEKKY! hahaha

btw, quekky wants me to type something about her. here goes:
Cheryl Quek is an "innocent" and "idealistic" girl who has "short" hair and "tanned" skin. she's very "nice" to people but exceptionally "bad" to me. people who befriend her, i hope your relationship will be "excellent" with such a "caring and considerate" friend in your life :D oh yea, she's a bit crippled, just fyi. lol

HAHA i think this is ridiculous.

so yea, shopping for long rocks man, for a girl that is. it's so nice of soon to tag along :D and he survived! wow, im not being sarcastic really, soon's a very good friend to be with :D

sat and sun were slack days. just that i had piano work to finish and then attend the lesson. rawrrrrrrr. i missed my marathon last sunday due to that. oh mannz.

monday was another day of outing, semi-shop-cum-movie! we watched 500 days of summer. i forgot that the rest had school and wanted to call them out but oops! hahahaa so it was the 4e-tpjc people + huiwen. it was very shocking to meet up with her in fact. LOL. they know why. hahaha. the movie was nice, not the usual ending a romantic movie would get. go catch it! i bought a pair of shorts after the movie and headed home for dinner with family as it was daddy's birthday! yupyup. but then the dinner turned out horrible as the noodles spoilt the whole meal. there was some brush thingy in the noodle, how horrible. enough of that, lol.

tues was shopping with audrey :D we went to bugis fashion street and far east and bought stuff again. hohoho, my money totally ran out =x bon tagged along and i could see that he was quite bored following us. HAHA! but he didnt say anything, awwww, that's nice :D soon came about 4+, 5? and they had a very good time together, LOL. this sounds wrong. as in, as least they can go shop and walk elsewhere instead of following us all around as when girls shop, we hardly take breaks. hahahaa. jervin came to join us for dinner and then we went home. that blur pig got lost at orchard! HAHA! he's so funny man and he's sure to remember the route to fareast now. ahhahaa

that's all for now! back to school was horrendous thanks to the time table. zzz. i'll elaborate more next time!

100909

2009-09-10T22:44:00.003+08:00

maybe i should be glad that blogger is still currently semi-down because it'll make me not wanna blog so much. and blogging takes up time. (: thanks blogger, for once.

today will be my last time blogging ( i hope ) until everything is over. if not i'll just die and die and die. i wonder how many lives i have. hmmmm.

good luck to all for their upcoming examinations :D prepare well!

cya soon :D next month probably :D

btw, dont treat me as a sub. im not one who dedicates every bit of myself to you, that's very unfair and selfish.

020909

2009-09-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

blogger is back to its worst state. i cannot stand this but i have to.

monday was such a brilliant day! going back to tk is equivalent to home sweet home! a pity the teachers were not around by the time we reached tk. sad? very. besides the anxiety to see the other tksians, i was also looking forward to seeing the teachers who had taught me throughout sec3 and sec4 and especially, mdm goo. but it was a disappointment.

nevertheless! i saw many other tksians! oh man, i miss them soooooo much. soooooooooo much that i dont mind sitting in the canteen just to chat and catch up with the good old days. it was ravishing :D

i went with the 4e clique to east coast macs for lunch. sinful huh, but it's okay. it had been a long time since i had lunch with these guys and it was a really wonderful lunch. chit-chat, laughter, our usual crap. love it man, love it! we then headed on to east coast bowling :D WEEEEE IT WAS REALLY FUN! though i didnt score well, it was thrilling and exciting. seeing those happy faces, those old happy faces, it really warmed my heart. my dear old friends, i love you all loads <3

sadly to say, happiness comes short. one month from today will be promos. it's going to be horrible! for example, today's test, i couldnt do it man. haiz. what to do man. so many people have no motivation to study and to do work yet they do want to score well. im one of them. what to do?

im dying to go shopping. im dying to have an extra 10 hours to spend for the day so i wont die of fatigue.

whatever it is, stay positive! stay happy! optimistic people! optimistic!

200809

2009-08-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

after like a few days of blogger being koay, it went back to its horrible state and now it's much more horrible. things have been happening and i cant keep up to the pace.

sometimes i believe that staying strong will help me get through everything but sometimes staying strong doesnt benefit at all. this sucks man. it really does.

1 month. will i survive?

i spoke to karyl online and she's quite a motivator. and that's very nice of her in fact. i do hope that i can really do like how i did in primary 4, amazed myself, amazed everyone who thought that i couldnt do it. i still remember that feeling but it disappeared the very next week and almost ruined everything.

as we grow older, things dont seem to be as pure and clear as we thought they do. now, the world is beginning to get scary.

170809

2009-08-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

i actually had a long post here. but now it's gone -.- im not going to write again. zzzzz

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIXUAN :D